Broken heart

Mok guarding Rania. He is smaller in weight than usual. 28 July 2010.
















The King of the house, Mok during his glorious days. Isn't he a gem!
















My chubby Mok at his best.













Mok undergoing dialysis at UPM clinic in PJ.
















Heart is a fragile thing. It can be broken many times. I know I am going to be heart broken again. My fat, cuddly, adorable, gorgeous, placid, bushy, manja, beautiful and the best cat in the world, Mok, is sick with renal failure, just like Raisa. We have not got over the death of Raisa yet and now facing another threat of losing my wonderful Mok. I was in Japan when Ika emailed me saying Mok is losing weight more and not wanting to eat. My heart crushed and I worried that Mok would not make it as long as we want it. I hate to see him suffer and it's breaking my heart.
Mok has been my therapist, accepting me with no judgment, listening patiently when I grumbled or when I am in despair. He gave so much comfort when he snuggled closely to me with his head on my chest and purring contentedly. Ika and Izrin have been taking care of him faithfully and we all are so concerned about his deteriorating condition. He has gone to dilysis regularly but there is no weight gain. When I came back I was shocked to see him so small. Usually he will swagger when he walks with his round belly almost touching the floor, confident that he has a place in everyone's heart. He can do no wrong.
We are at a loss at what to do next to make him better and gain weight again. I have to forced-feed him. Believe it or not, I have to forced-feed him with fish. Mok has always been a one-track mind kind of guy - he eats only his biscuits. No amount of fish or other attractive, delicious food will entice him to eat. He just sniffed at it and with disdain, walked away.
Today 29 July 2010, Mok was hospitalised in animal hospital UPM. His left kidney is in bad condition and he lost more weight. I was devastated and couldn't help tearing while driving home. I felt so helpless and miss him already. Mok is supposed to be in hospital for 5 days but it could be longer.
Please Mok, eat and get well. I love you soooooooo very much.


Raisa died on 15 June 2010.