Eye issues.

I have totally accepted my condition. I have acute glaucoma on both eyes, that's a fact, no point denying it. I tried to do what the doctors advised me to do. Only one that makes me feel guilty - I play truant at going to the gym. Maz is not happy because she pays all the fees, including my personal trainer. Doctors advised me to do regular exercise for smooth blood flow to the eyes. I know it but...........Since I traveled outside the country in Dec 2010, fell sick when I returned, then followed by short visit to Kuching and going back to PD and the CNY holidays, I have not been to the gym. I have to drag my feet there with loads of excuses. I am sorry Maz, your mom is getting lazy. Thank you and Ika for pushing me but I have bigger excuse now for not going.

My eyesight is deteriorating, not because of glaucoma but due to cataract on both eyes. I stop driving when it's dark. Reading road signs is just impossible. I am endangering myself and others if I don't do something about this. I have consulted many eye specialist for advice on how safe it is if I go for cataract surgery with my acute glaucoma. Some are encouraging but many make me aware of the risks. One doctor suggested that I do double surgery - cataract and glaucoma at the same time. This frightens me. I went for another consultation and was advised to do one at a time as glaucoma surgery is very intrusive. It maybe more expensive but safer. I agreed.

I have given this a lot of thought but I have Hobson's choice. So, on 17 February I am going to do cataract surgery on my left eye at UMSC. Prof Mimi is going to do it. I trust her but please pray for me that I'll be OK and that my sight improves. I may do the right eye later if the surgery is successful.

One or two eye specialists have assured me that having glaucoma doesn't mean that I am going to be blind. This gives me hope. What I need to do is to take care so that my eye pressure doesn't go up. Question - how do I do it? Inspite of using 3 eye drops faithfully, my eye pressure sometimes shoots up. I found out only when I went for checkup. Looking at my visual field test, Prof Mimi said my pressure is not too bad and will consider surgery if the pressure cannot be controlled. Ya Allah...please help me and save my precious sights.

So I am taking time off from computer after 17 February 2011. I'll see what happens..