With Pn Hashimah and Hj. Alias at Benkel penulisan Nota Kes at Ministry of Health 170609
My last blog received overwhelming responses from you, readers, especially from my ex-students.Thank you for the kind words, the wise words, the comforting prayer, the good wishes, the advice, the loving assurance, and the sincere words with feelings. Till today I still received sms, emails, YM and calls, giving me courage. I am honoured and grateful to God for surrounding me with lovely people who care. So, thank you, thank you and thank you!!!!!!!! May God bless you all.
Hei, do you know, I feel Monday morning episode was like a yesteryear story, for today, life is back to normal for me. I spent the whole day with Ministry of Health counsellors conducting a workshop on ethics and case note writing. I promised I'll be OK and I am. You see, writing has always been a therapy for me. I may look outgoing but internally I am quite a private person. There are a few things that I don't share with people but I wrote in my journals and I have quite a stack! My blog is my outlet to let go the things that bother me, my sadness, my hope and my beliefs. I felt good after writing the blog though my tears interfered with my typing. Your responses got into my heart and I am humbled by your sincerity and of course some brought smiles and chuckles.
With hospital counsellors at the Bengkel, Ministry of Health 170609
I admit, deep down I still harbour the fear - the uncertainty of my future in darkness but it's a fact that I have to face. So I stopped crying - I'll deal with it when the time comes. Meanwhile, there are so many things I want to do, so many places I want to see, so many people I want to interact, so many animals I want to hug (but not the Komodo dragons!!), so many beautiful flowers to enjoy. So I am not going to immerse myself in self-pity. I have done that, thank you. Quite a few said I am a strong person, maybe so but I also have my weaknesses like last Monday. I am proud though that I am able to cry, able to write it down openly for people to read (not to get pity or for people to feel sorry for me) but to understand my turmoil, to share my feelings and experiences and to learn from it and to see that I am a so very normal human being.
I may lose my sight but I will not lose me as a person. You can bet on it!
15 comments:
Kak Zu...
Hidup mesti diteruskan biar apa pun yg berlaku.
Saya dah open my blog kalau Kak Zu nak bertandang. Lama tak buka sebab tak update. Blog Naterah ada la dia update. Lupa pulak url dia.
Z
Dear mama,
I feel glad to hear these mama.
of course as a normal human being, we could not be strong every moments. life is ups n downs right? but the support n love from others could give us more "power" to be strong ^_^ the more challenges we face, the more we fight, even suffer, but i believe that these could help us to be stronger n growth
cheer up mama
jenice
Auntie,
We always advise people, it's OK to cry. Let it go. But me here, sometime, it's really hard to cry- esp when I have problems with my study. I am sad and upset- yes! I wish I could cry. I am so envy that you can burst in tears. Silly me, huh? But, I know one thing, my heart easily touch by soomeone who I really love. I burst in tears. My point is, just cry when we feel too. It's good to cry, tears cleanse our eyes. (heheh..see..i am making silly joke in the middle of my sentence. hehehe)
Auntie, remember this k. Wherever you go, whomever you meet, you actually leave 'a footprint' for them to remember. I am sure auntie..you will have people around you. That's for sure 'the unknown' becomes known- and in fact, you already have us here.
Those (no matter someone you love most or others) who don't realise your love, your care, and your good heart, sooner or later, they will know. It's a matter of time- we don't know they will regret it or not. But I am sure, they will regret to see the beauty of your moans and babbles.
Take care auntie. I love you!
Love,
Emma xx.
Assalamualaikum Nek Zu,
Mama told me about your condition. Nek Zu jangan sedih-sedih ok! Nek Zu baik, nanti mesti Allah tolong. I love u.
Irfan Danial,Luton UK
Mama,
I feel the same.Blogging is a way to release bad feeling and get supports. Keep up blogging. Congrats.
Much Love from me.
Z
apa addressnya?
KZu
Irfan
TQ. Nek Zu dah OK. saje je nak nangis.You take care over there and study well. balik nanti berabuk cakap mat saleh! enjoy yourself there and Nek Zu harap dapat visit sebelum Irfan dan family balik.
salam sayang, cium banyak2.
Nek Zu
Ama
Bila rasa nak nangis tu, pikir je yang sedih2, keluarlah air mata.asalkan tak jadikan habit cukuplah. air mata pun therapy. TQ sayang for your loving assurance. Focus on your goal. yang lain tu tolak tepi dulu.
Good luck.
Auntie Zu
Janice and Naj,
Really appreciate your caring. You made me feel good about myself. Hei Life is marvelous and every second counts.
mama
Mama,
I have faith to God that you will be okay soon. ^.^ God listened to prayer and you are better now. Very good to know you continue your marvelous life... Learn from you a lot to be a positive thinking individual! Keep it up and cheer up your life always.
Love,
Y teng
Salam mama,
i just got the chance to open my mail today.. i was so shocked to hear about your condition. it breaks my heart to know you're going through such a challenging Dugaan in your life.. but then, i'm so glad your feeling better now. you've been really strong and i've always admire your strength..
Mama, i love you so much.. Saya doakan semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan mama di dunia dan di akhirat. InsyaAllah, dengan kesabaran mama menghadapi dugaan ini, balasannya pasti amat besar untuk mama.
I will always pray for you and for your health. No matter what, you'll always be my IDOL ~_^..
LOVE YOU MUCH MAMA!!
p/s: alhamdulillah, i already got a job. i'm doing HR in an outsourcing company.. thank you so much 4 your support ~_^
Dear Mama,
I'm not so good with words. But this, I made for you:
A breeze so refreshing,
Blowing with no rushing
A smile so honest, comes from a pure heart of gold
A hug so warm, something not to withhold
That would be how I portrait you.
Some people go old and weary
Some become grumpy and grouchy
Some with health declining
And some just keep denying
But none of these are true about you.
Taught us well, taught us so much
And yet now, you are still doing as such
God is fair, and ever so kind
He won’t let you be forever blind
For eyes only see what there is to see
The spread of panorama and outrageous scenes
But the true eyes are really the heart
And you know it, cos you are a smart
For all these years that you have graced
Every bit of them you have embraced
With not only your sights in place,
But with everything else your heart encased.
The thing about future we troubled ourselves
Is the fact that it’s so hazy and fuzzy
It just make us want to probe and delve
Wishing it promising us a life so snazzy;
Oh, how cunning the future is,
For it usually hold a surprise
Now that is something to cherish
Like the sun, never failing to rise.
Now, you will be OK despite the fears
No matter how much you have shed your tears
You will learn to cope and adapt
Because you are so NOT an inept!
We may not be there physically
But you are in our prayers, daily
May you are granted the strength and will
For your future life’s refill.
Hope the words bring comfort to you...
Sprinkles of love and cotton-candy hug,
Arfah.
Kak Zu
znurulnadia.blogspot.com
Z
Arfah, Y Teng & Pha Dee,
A million thanks.
Arfah, I am moved by your beautiful poem and of course with tears. I do appreciate that and I am sure yo take time to create the poem. TQ.
Y Teng, TQ for your good wishes for me. with so many of my students praying in their own way, I hope God grants an extension for my vision.
PhaDee, TQ and congratulations for your new job. You are one of the lucky ones. Enjoy working as you will be still learning.
Much love
mama
Dear Mama,
Have a great day.Glad to hear that you already move up and start with usual activities that you always done Mama.
Take good care.
Love
Ina
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