Elderly anxiety

I was browsing through internet to understand more of elderly anxiety. There are a few interesting articles and I was looking for something that has connection to my situation now. According to Mike Sherry, a psychologist, among the elderly, situations like conflict-laden relationship, difficulty performing important obligations or frustrating cognitive tasks often brings about anxious feelings. Admittedly I am suffering from anxiety due to unresolved relationship problem rooted in several years ago. I am feeling so disgusted, angry and disappointed that greed and vengeance can consumed a person beyond reason. According to Sherry, anxiety can cause severe distress over a period of time and disrupt the lives of individuals suffering from them. Oh yes, that's me alright.

For the past 10 years I have a fulfilled life, at peace with myself, doing things that I like to do without bothering my children or anybody else and enjoying Rania's presence. And suddenly my peace of mind was shattered with a lawyer's letter that threatened my stability and my children's. I am not interested to rake old stories as I believe it should be buried in the past and what's important is the present and the future. My presence life is calm and joyful and the future I don't know. Unfortunately, my future now becomes so unstable due to past greed and vengeance. I know, not everybody can just leave the past and let it rest but my case was simple. It boils down to acceptance, generosity and kindness, for attacking me means attacking my children's inheritance as well. I am a mother and will not jeopardize my children's rights, no matter what. I don't crave for material possession but would like to keep what I have and have worked for, for my children. I guess inilah salah satu sebab mengapa orang Melayu lambat maju ke hadapan disebabkan busuk hati, dendam dan rasa puas melihat sasarannya (orang Melayu juga) menderita atau hilang segalanya.

I promise myself I am going to fight this and will not let this ba***rd get to my mind and consume my sanity. I have gone through that life before. I don't want to be the victim of depression or mental break down. This is another attempt to break me.

I am suffering from mild anxiety now as I am able to function and trying to find ways to overcome it. But it causes me severe distress for a few weeks now, robbing my night sleep and my peace of mind and physical strength. I don't know how my eye pressure is like. I suspect it will go up due to tension. My eye checkup on 25 April will tell my situation.

Please pray for me that I'll get out of this problem with triumph.